Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I am...
I am an idealist, a prophet, the mind, body, and soul of an individualist. Yet, I am bound by mediocrity, but still and always trying to break free from its hold. I stand for decaying intelligence in this plane of existence and enemy to those who follow without question, whom are bound by their own idle minds. I am the reaper of ignorance. The savior amongst the masses of sin. The rebirth of mankind's sorrow and hatred. I am the Death of Gods...
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
People are animals, they are animals and so much worse. People can embody and in my experience tend to embody the worst traits of sentience and animalism. They have all the needs of animals and all the selfishness, guile and greed capable of a sentient being both enforced by a sick society. They leave out the balance of an animal, the simplicity. As well as the wisdom of Man, the willpower and the capabilities reflection, empathy and retrospection. The masses are disgusting blind herds, I do tend to like individuals, always though it tends to be individuals who don't follow the trend and even still.
I read people well, since early on I've also enjoyed figuring out cause and effect. When you apply that to people and study and watch, introspect, empathize for long enough you'll understand people well enough and read them quicker each day. I'm an enigma to myself. Did you know that? It is a simple yet complicated.
I understand what drives people, the want to acquire material wealth to be more comfortable in this world, to be known, to express themselves to other people. The human being psychologically requires; attention, an ego, goals (which tend to be materialistic) and so on.
Then I talk to someone or watch other people talk and it is just everyone waiting for their turn to talk and not listening. People don't care about anything or anyone not directly affecting them. Homeless people, poor people, sick people, old people, children, animals are just examples of living beings people are more than quick to shun and treat like things and not human beings. They quite happily look the other way and concentrate on themselves and fail to consider for a moment giving them as much value and attention as they give themselves.
People go to psychiatrists and pump themselves with pills because they feel alone. One in a billion, yet everyone thinks their life is the most important thing in the world. Not only that but also that everyone needs or wants to learn every little detail. I'm not a violent person, I'm quite a pacifist at heart but sitting there while a woman tells me about what she thinks of her sister dating somee guy and her child coming over and wanting to play and her beating him because she is trying to talk. Makes me want to quite literally go feral and snap her wrists, which is frustratingly more tempting since I do know how to and can, so she can't hit her child who's just being a child anymore.
I get this overwhelming feeling that people don't think, that people don't listen. All rushed and rushed into being hollow and empty. Listen to the trees, listen to the animals, listen to yourself and find solace in that, find contentment and peace in that. Learn from that, expand your mind past the parameters set by other people, set by the physical world or what other people think or want. It is possible. I have done it, I do it everyday. People are blunted, mentally and spiritually and then they are herded with a carrot on a stick approach by everyone. because everyone expects something from them, their family, their co-workers, their friends, their own parents they all pressure and demand. Such a horrible empty life, lived for others who are as selfish and as caught up as you. An endless cycle. Do unto others as has been done unto you. others tend to be mentally stunted, selfish others.
I need to go now, will edit later
I read people well, since early on I've also enjoyed figuring out cause and effect. When you apply that to people and study and watch, introspect, empathize for long enough you'll understand people well enough and read them quicker each day. I'm an enigma to myself. Did you know that? It is a simple yet complicated.
I understand what drives people, the want to acquire material wealth to be more comfortable in this world, to be known, to express themselves to other people. The human being psychologically requires; attention, an ego, goals (which tend to be materialistic) and so on.
Then I talk to someone or watch other people talk and it is just everyone waiting for their turn to talk and not listening. People don't care about anything or anyone not directly affecting them. Homeless people, poor people, sick people, old people, children, animals are just examples of living beings people are more than quick to shun and treat like things and not human beings. They quite happily look the other way and concentrate on themselves and fail to consider for a moment giving them as much value and attention as they give themselves.
People go to psychiatrists and pump themselves with pills because they feel alone. One in a billion, yet everyone thinks their life is the most important thing in the world. Not only that but also that everyone needs or wants to learn every little detail. I'm not a violent person, I'm quite a pacifist at heart but sitting there while a woman tells me about what she thinks of her sister dating somee guy and her child coming over and wanting to play and her beating him because she is trying to talk. Makes me want to quite literally go feral and snap her wrists, which is frustratingly more tempting since I do know how to and can, so she can't hit her child who's just being a child anymore.
I get this overwhelming feeling that people don't think, that people don't listen. All rushed and rushed into being hollow and empty. Listen to the trees, listen to the animals, listen to yourself and find solace in that, find contentment and peace in that. Learn from that, expand your mind past the parameters set by other people, set by the physical world or what other people think or want. It is possible. I have done it, I do it everyday. People are blunted, mentally and spiritually and then they are herded with a carrot on a stick approach by everyone. because everyone expects something from them, their family, their co-workers, their friends, their own parents they all pressure and demand. Such a horrible empty life, lived for others who are as selfish and as caught up as you. An endless cycle. Do unto others as has been done unto you. others tend to be mentally stunted, selfish others.
I need to go now, will edit later
My childhood part 1
I rush here and I rush there and up and down and everything is a blur. I feel like I have no time to write between schoolwork and housework. So I write down notes, short drafts and such. In the end they clutter and make me feel even more like I can't write anymore so I basically put everything aside and sat down to write right now. Of all the notes and scribbles I've made of musings and reflections on spirituality, society at large, scientific theories and ideas, poems and prose. All of these jumbled together into an conglomeration as well as an effective writing clog. I sit down and can't feel nothing else to come to mind but to complain about people, human beings and coming back to add here after more than a few paragraphs down this will probably have a sequel to tie it together.
I've written at some point or the other about it but this writing block preys on me and it feeds on my frustrations. Wow that almost made it sound sentient... maybe it is!
At any rate yes people. I had a different childhood to keep it simple and as such I kept to myself, watched the other children at times but mostly wandered off to whatever wilderness I could find to catch lizards and play with bugs. The empathy i have with animals of any size or lifeforms in general I developed in my childhood and from then to this day. Most kids like to play all the time with other kids and get attention. I simply didn't, I enjoyed going down a steep mound into a bamboo forest and parting only with it when the bell for class rang. My playmates were black and orange ladybugs, green lizards, black spiders, worms, trees, bamboo, rocks. There I played pretend, there I enjoyed the strange alien feel of scales and insect legs when I caught the creatures who scared everyone else. I'd make "buildings" out of sticks and rocks given them a rough idea like sticks stuck into the ground in a circle of a cairn of rocks.
The place was dark, the bamboos let some rays of sunlight in which i enjoyed playing with the beams though I remember that the sun hurt my eyes when i finally got out of my journeys. I was a strange child to others, not shunned because I could catch lizards and grasshoppers and I could speak of animals I had learned of from my books and isolation to their awed delight. Yet I was never a leader, I wasn't picked first or second or third for games, I was made fun of by older kids and others were quick to join in, I simply didn't like to talk and just talk as much as everyone else did. I was for my pale skin, bad socializing skills and strange habits subtly marginalized.
I didn't mind at all I had enjoyed my journeys into the creaking bamboo forests more than trying to fit in before any feeling of displacement happened. I would play pretend with the bugs and the lizards and the trees, I would pretend I was one of them and wonder what it would be like to be a tall tree or an agile lizard I wanted to know what that was like more than I wanted to be human with all their brutish cruelness, I remember even back then I thought the insults they called each other didn't make sense to me, and demands for what they called "normality". Those demands are what shattered my fey world and its why I feel protective towards children when i see bad parents doing the same. I guess its something we all go through but some parents tell their kids not to touch animals that are obviously harmless like a snail for example, not to touch rocks and plants, to not be loud or to run, not to play with anything that isn't some mentally blunting, socially moulded plastic thing. Most kids however are quick to accept it I didn't, I spent my childhood wanting to be a lizard and a wolf and sometimes a tree. Past the demands for me to play with other children, to comb my hair to the side, to not get my striped polo shirts and pretty shoes dirty and to be normal I clung fiercely to my fey world of creatures I studied and understood.
I am on a roll here aren't I? Lets skip forward a bit. So yes eventually the demands turned to forcing and I was ripped away not without a deep imprint left in me. I changed schools, no green just a sun baked hell with a basketball court and an ugly playground of seesaws and jungle gyms, well i though they were ugly everyone else loved them then again none of them saw the magic of nature as I did and do.
No animals, no forests so resigned I was trampled over into the masses to be stamped out into what every parent seems to want, a normal healthy successful professional whatever it takes. So I took what I learnt from my time in the shadows of the forests and the lore of the beasts and turned it with what I found myself surrounded by, people. There in the 2nd grade I realized the truth was uglier than the I assumed by distancing myself and blocking it out.
I've written at some point or the other about it but this writing block preys on me and it feeds on my frustrations. Wow that almost made it sound sentient... maybe it is!
At any rate yes people. I had a different childhood to keep it simple and as such I kept to myself, watched the other children at times but mostly wandered off to whatever wilderness I could find to catch lizards and play with bugs. The empathy i have with animals of any size or lifeforms in general I developed in my childhood and from then to this day. Most kids like to play all the time with other kids and get attention. I simply didn't, I enjoyed going down a steep mound into a bamboo forest and parting only with it when the bell for class rang. My playmates were black and orange ladybugs, green lizards, black spiders, worms, trees, bamboo, rocks. There I played pretend, there I enjoyed the strange alien feel of scales and insect legs when I caught the creatures who scared everyone else. I'd make "buildings" out of sticks and rocks given them a rough idea like sticks stuck into the ground in a circle of a cairn of rocks.
The place was dark, the bamboos let some rays of sunlight in which i enjoyed playing with the beams though I remember that the sun hurt my eyes when i finally got out of my journeys. I was a strange child to others, not shunned because I could catch lizards and grasshoppers and I could speak of animals I had learned of from my books and isolation to their awed delight. Yet I was never a leader, I wasn't picked first or second or third for games, I was made fun of by older kids and others were quick to join in, I simply didn't like to talk and just talk as much as everyone else did. I was for my pale skin, bad socializing skills and strange habits subtly marginalized.
I didn't mind at all I had enjoyed my journeys into the creaking bamboo forests more than trying to fit in before any feeling of displacement happened. I would play pretend with the bugs and the lizards and the trees, I would pretend I was one of them and wonder what it would be like to be a tall tree or an agile lizard I wanted to know what that was like more than I wanted to be human with all their brutish cruelness, I remember even back then I thought the insults they called each other didn't make sense to me, and demands for what they called "normality". Those demands are what shattered my fey world and its why I feel protective towards children when i see bad parents doing the same. I guess its something we all go through but some parents tell their kids not to touch animals that are obviously harmless like a snail for example, not to touch rocks and plants, to not be loud or to run, not to play with anything that isn't some mentally blunting, socially moulded plastic thing. Most kids however are quick to accept it I didn't, I spent my childhood wanting to be a lizard and a wolf and sometimes a tree. Past the demands for me to play with other children, to comb my hair to the side, to not get my striped polo shirts and pretty shoes dirty and to be normal I clung fiercely to my fey world of creatures I studied and understood.
I am on a roll here aren't I? Lets skip forward a bit. So yes eventually the demands turned to forcing and I was ripped away not without a deep imprint left in me. I changed schools, no green just a sun baked hell with a basketball court and an ugly playground of seesaws and jungle gyms, well i though they were ugly everyone else loved them then again none of them saw the magic of nature as I did and do.
No animals, no forests so resigned I was trampled over into the masses to be stamped out into what every parent seems to want, a normal healthy successful professional whatever it takes. So I took what I learnt from my time in the shadows of the forests and the lore of the beasts and turned it with what I found myself surrounded by, people. There in the 2nd grade I realized the truth was uglier than the I assumed by distancing myself and blocking it out.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Over Medicating Children
Alright ladies and gents and whatever entities and/or beings end up reading this. Lets talk about medication and "living better chemically", which I have plenty of issues with already, and add to that children. Today my beloved and significant other gave a presentation on over medicating children.
That sparked a brainstorm in me and a long social musing and reflection in my head and even though we were short on time and the rest of the class didn't have any interest in it, like they have no interest in anything no directly related to them and their egos, that's a rant for another time. As is randomly noting that "Ring around the Rosie" is based on the horrid and disgusting symptoms of the black plague.
So I do not believe in living chemically. Why? because we're equipped not to do so and willpower and patience should be exercised more than pumping ourselves with chemicals when it comes to our problems and illnesses. Sure I do understand some people do need it of course but it is so widely and casually distributed and used. i heard this article that a child was medicated and put in a psychiatric hospital because of a temper tantrum... thing is this child wasn't a teen, he was 6. So people have a pill for everything these days and blindly trust doctors, who are as corruptible as any other human being. As she very well mentioned some pharmaceutical comes over and tells them, directly or indirectly, this is our new, refined, best pill, "Prescript it as much as you can". Hell one day you'll go to your psychiatrist's office and those bowls they keep around won't have mints or jellybeans it'll have antidepressant samples.
So to continue with the fun fact that she mentioned Ritalin's warning ad says that it may cause sudden death and it struck me! How much stuff? How many? How many of the things we buy have warning ads? 80-95% of them? Hell the packets of peanuts they give you in airplanes say "may contain peanuts", microwavable food says "Will be hot after heating" and every drug prescription or not will make you dizzy, nauseated, have cramps or suffer mood swings or a combination of those just to give a scant example. So guess what? I realize I included and most people don't bother reading them anymore because we are so used to it and well there's a prime example one says may cause sudden death and thousands of children take it everyday.
Then they get all of these stupid names like defiant bullshit disorder and hyperactivity something syndrome. Well you know what before your obsessive naming kind came along kids were just kids, some harder to raise than others. They weren't children whose fate was in the hands of irresponsible parents and doctors who'll up the dosage to keep him down. How is it right to dope a child? He has no right to say no I don't want it. if he technically does what happens behind closed doors in a house and the pressure and atmosphere that forms is nothing that has to do with technicality.
So you know what i think? the parents are the problem more often than not. Don't get me wrong some kids are little demons that need to be toned down maybe even artificially. However giving them pills is not in any way or form the solution and that is exactly what it is being used as. He stops reacting to the dosage, up it. Parents who just want their kids out of the way the easiest quickest way. The disturbing factor is how young the children are, as times goes on parents and doctors get bolder and bolder. I mean six? and that mom that they say she killed her child by doping it so she could go party. That is twisted by any standard I can set and yet it is setting insidiously into society like something normal and acceptable.
These drugs have not been thoroughly tested on children and the consequences have not been felt yet but at the rate it is becoming popular and the scale its taking I'm sure we'll feel the consequences somewhere over a decade or so. To close this off I repeat myself. Drugs are not the solution, there is an age limit as well because the repercussions cannot be felt yet and lowering the age limit is something that should be strongly and analytically taken apart with a conscience and patience not by the fickle tides of capitalism and consumerism. I have no problem with the drug being something used in conjunction with therapy, communication and a spirit of self-help. Yet it is a serious and unnerving issue that it is used for turning children into zombies for their parents benefit and leisure and adults into legal junkies. The housewife who can't wait to get home to take a Valium and pass out on the bed is no better than a junkie lying with a needle stuck in his arm passed out in a gutter. It is also more often than not the parents, who may or not abuse prescribed medications themselves, the source of the problem and not the child and when the child does develop "problematic behavior" for the parent they take the fastest, proven and easiest route to block out the problem. Drugs.
Legal ones, because that you can't mellow your kid out with Marijuana 24/7 doesn't mean you can take him to some quack doctor and shove Valium down his throat and get the same result you wanted so you can forget the responsibilities and challenges of parenthood.
That sparked a brainstorm in me and a long social musing and reflection in my head and even though we were short on time and the rest of the class didn't have any interest in it, like they have no interest in anything no directly related to them and their egos, that's a rant for another time. As is randomly noting that "Ring around the Rosie" is based on the horrid and disgusting symptoms of the black plague.
So I do not believe in living chemically. Why? because we're equipped not to do so and willpower and patience should be exercised more than pumping ourselves with chemicals when it comes to our problems and illnesses. Sure I do understand some people do need it of course but it is so widely and casually distributed and used. i heard this article that a child was medicated and put in a psychiatric hospital because of a temper tantrum... thing is this child wasn't a teen, he was 6. So people have a pill for everything these days and blindly trust doctors, who are as corruptible as any other human being. As she very well mentioned some pharmaceutical comes over and tells them, directly or indirectly, this is our new, refined, best pill, "Prescript it as much as you can". Hell one day you'll go to your psychiatrist's office and those bowls they keep around won't have mints or jellybeans it'll have antidepressant samples.
So to continue with the fun fact that she mentioned Ritalin's warning ad says that it may cause sudden death and it struck me! How much stuff? How many? How many of the things we buy have warning ads? 80-95% of them? Hell the packets of peanuts they give you in airplanes say "may contain peanuts", microwavable food says "Will be hot after heating" and every drug prescription or not will make you dizzy, nauseated, have cramps or suffer mood swings or a combination of those just to give a scant example. So guess what? I realize I included and most people don't bother reading them anymore because we are so used to it and well there's a prime example one says may cause sudden death and thousands of children take it everyday.
Then they get all of these stupid names like defiant bullshit disorder and hyperactivity something syndrome. Well you know what before your obsessive naming kind came along kids were just kids, some harder to raise than others. They weren't children whose fate was in the hands of irresponsible parents and doctors who'll up the dosage to keep him down. How is it right to dope a child? He has no right to say no I don't want it. if he technically does what happens behind closed doors in a house and the pressure and atmosphere that forms is nothing that has to do with technicality.
So you know what i think? the parents are the problem more often than not. Don't get me wrong some kids are little demons that need to be toned down maybe even artificially. However giving them pills is not in any way or form the solution and that is exactly what it is being used as. He stops reacting to the dosage, up it. Parents who just want their kids out of the way the easiest quickest way. The disturbing factor is how young the children are, as times goes on parents and doctors get bolder and bolder. I mean six? and that mom that they say she killed her child by doping it so she could go party. That is twisted by any standard I can set and yet it is setting insidiously into society like something normal and acceptable.
These drugs have not been thoroughly tested on children and the consequences have not been felt yet but at the rate it is becoming popular and the scale its taking I'm sure we'll feel the consequences somewhere over a decade or so. To close this off I repeat myself. Drugs are not the solution, there is an age limit as well because the repercussions cannot be felt yet and lowering the age limit is something that should be strongly and analytically taken apart with a conscience and patience not by the fickle tides of capitalism and consumerism. I have no problem with the drug being something used in conjunction with therapy, communication and a spirit of self-help. Yet it is a serious and unnerving issue that it is used for turning children into zombies for their parents benefit and leisure and adults into legal junkies. The housewife who can't wait to get home to take a Valium and pass out on the bed is no better than a junkie lying with a needle stuck in his arm passed out in a gutter. It is also more often than not the parents, who may or not abuse prescribed medications themselves, the source of the problem and not the child and when the child does develop "problematic behavior" for the parent they take the fastest, proven and easiest route to block out the problem. Drugs.
Legal ones, because that you can't mellow your kid out with Marijuana 24/7 doesn't mean you can take him to some quack doctor and shove Valium down his throat and get the same result you wanted so you can forget the responsibilities and challenges of parenthood.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
There is something wrong with me
Well after the aforementioned horrid attempts of interacting online with other human beings I just made another messenger account and started talking with myself.
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Seb: I is serious cat!
Sebastian Fuentes: no thee is not
Sebastian Fuentes: take that back
Seb: make me
Sebastian Fuentes: I SHALT MURDER THEE AND CAST THY INNARDS TO THE SEA DRAGONS
Seb: Thou shall try
Sebastian Fuentes: and succeed...
Seb: villain I say!
Seb: villain!
Sebastian Fuentes: How do does thee dare!
Seb: I'm not sure...
Sebastian Fuentes: I is serious cat here!
Seb: Nay!
Seb: I is serious cat
Seb: I is the most serious cat to talk this earth in the last ten thousand years!
Sebastian Fuentes: I is the most serious cat to walk this plane of existence in the last ten millennia!
Seb: lies I say!
Sebastian Fuentes: truth
Seb: if indeed
Sebastian Fuentes: yes?
Seb: Where do babies come from?
Sebastian Fuentes: I'm... I'm not sure...
Seb: aha!
Sebastian Fuentes: well do you know?
Seb: um no...
Sebastian Fuentes: Woohoo I win
Seb: you don't know either ayah silly face
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Seb: I is serious cat!
Sebastian Fuentes: no thee is not
Sebastian Fuentes: take that back
Seb: make me
Sebastian Fuentes: I SHALT MURDER THEE AND CAST THY INNARDS TO THE SEA DRAGONS
Seb: Thou shall try
Sebastian Fuentes: and succeed...
Seb: villain I say!
Seb: villain!
Sebastian Fuentes: How do does thee dare!
Seb: I'm not sure...
Sebastian Fuentes: I is serious cat here!
Seb: Nay!
Seb: I is serious cat
Seb: I is the most serious cat to talk this earth in the last ten thousand years!
Sebastian Fuentes: I is the most serious cat to walk this plane of existence in the last ten millennia!
Seb: lies I say!
Sebastian Fuentes: truth
Seb: if indeed
Sebastian Fuentes: yes?
Seb: Where do babies come from?
Sebastian Fuentes: I'm... I'm not sure...
Seb: aha!
Sebastian Fuentes: well do you know?
Seb: um no...
Sebastian Fuentes: Woohoo I win
Seb: you don't know either ayah silly face
I was raped by an anthropomorphic tiger
More internet fun, a random guy pretending to be a tiger online tried to have cybersex with me. Another friend told me to add him, I came to regret the decision.
Copy+paste. Some people need counseling.
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Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
I want to be rubbed
Seb says:
good for you
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*lays down and licks my hind leg showing off my hindquarters*
Seb says:
nice um... stripes
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*licks my sheath*
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
Mr. Muffins..... *rubs against your leg purring* This kitten is very hot.... *whimpers*
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
Mr. Muffins..... *rubs against your leg purring* This kitten is very hot.... *whimpers*
Seb says:
calm down there cowboy
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*licks your leg*
Seb says:
Why my dear anthropomorphic tiger friend are you trying to mate with me?
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*sits down and looks at you whimpering*
Seb says:
there there
Seb says:
I'm sure there is a nice tiger person out there for you
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*rubs against your leg affectionately purring*
Seb says:
out there... not on my leg
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*whimpers and tries to get on your leg*
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*whimpers and tries to get on your leg*
Seb says:
bad kitty
Seb says:
I'd throw water at you but tigers swim
Seb says:
and outside that are very large deadly felines
Seb says:
so
Seb says:
I'm out of ideas
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*wraps my front paws around your leg and pushes my sheath against your foot*
Seb says:
you're an anthropomorphic tiger with a foot fetish?
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*grunts and humps you moving my sheath under your pants as something wet touches your skin*
Seb says:
*flails wildly*
Seb says:
This is the worst acid trip I've ever had!
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*grunts harder as something warm goes up your leg slightly leaving a soft wet feeling*
Seb says:
quite the sick trip friend but I really need to get ready for work
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*gets off your leg my erect member slipping from your pants dripping pre*
Seb says:
thank you
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*licks at my red member as it withdraws back in my sheath**
Copy+paste. Some people need counseling.
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Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
I want to be rubbed
Seb says:
good for you
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*lays down and licks my hind leg showing off my hindquarters*
Seb says:
nice um... stripes
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*licks my sheath*
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
Mr. Muffins..... *rubs against your leg purring* This kitten is very hot.... *whimpers*
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
Mr. Muffins..... *rubs against your leg purring* This kitten is very hot.... *whimpers*
Seb says:
calm down there cowboy
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*licks your leg*
Seb says:
Why my dear anthropomorphic tiger friend are you trying to mate with me?
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*sits down and looks at you whimpering*
Seb says:
there there
Seb says:
I'm sure there is a nice tiger person out there for you
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*rubs against your leg affectionately purring*
Seb says:
out there... not on my leg
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*whimpers and tries to get on your leg*
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*whimpers and tries to get on your leg*
Seb says:
bad kitty
Seb says:
I'd throw water at you but tigers swim
Seb says:
and outside that are very large deadly felines
Seb says:
so
Seb says:
I'm out of ideas
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*wraps my front paws around your leg and pushes my sheath against your foot*
Seb says:
you're an anthropomorphic tiger with a foot fetish?
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*grunts and humps you moving my sheath under your pants as something wet touches your skin*
Seb says:
*flails wildly*
Seb says:
This is the worst acid trip I've ever had!
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*grunts harder as something warm goes up your leg slightly leaving a soft wet feeling*
Seb says:
quite the sick trip friend but I really need to get ready for work
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*gets off your leg my erect member slipping from your pants dripping pre*
Seb says:
thank you
Sazu the Gay Tiger says:
*licks at my red member as it withdraws back in my sheath**
Idiocy this bad isn't funny
Messenger conversation between me and a friend, I would be Grendh'al. Grendh'al being a funny spelling for Grendel. Anyhow:
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Staci says:
of course
Grendh'al says:
You guys are using your rubbers and whatnot right
Staci says:
umm most of the tim
Staci says:
e
Staci says:
i drew a chibi crying
Grendh'al says:
...
Grendh'al says:
That has to be the worse attempt at dismissing a topic I have ever come across
Staci says:
lol
Staci says:
look at it
Grendh'al says:
it's a nice chibi
Grendh'al says:
I see it
Grendh'al says:
*pat pat* I commend your chibi skills
Staci says:
yay!
Grendh'al says:
Now
Grendh'al says:
What do you mean MOST of the time
Grendh'al says:
What happens the not so most of the time?
Grendh'al says:
You run out?
Staci says:
lol
Staci says:
we usually dont start with one, and only a couple times have we finished without one
Grendh'al says:
You know there's this thing called pregnancy
Grendh'al says:
you know like what happenend to Mel
Grendh'al says:
That happens when you finish without one
Grendh'al says:
and it's usually a good idea not to pull such stunts during high school
Grendh'al says:
Just saying m'dear
Staci says:
yeah
Staci says:
but i dont care xp
Grendh'al says:
Why?
Grendh'al says:
Are you trying for a kid?
Staci says:
not really
Staci says:
whatever happens happens
Grendh'al says:
um
Grendh'al says:
There's a pretty clear line inbetween sex with condoms and sex without it. I don't see a lot of chance happening there
Grendh'al says:
Let's try to shake the apathy there off for a moment. Okay and if a HUMAN BEING starts growing in your womb?
Staci says:
but i dont care if it happens
Staci says:
i would verymuch so embrace that part of life
Grendh'al says:
So you are trying for one
Grendh'al says:
in a roll of dice
Staci says:
not really
Staci says:
just whatever happens, happens
Grendh'al says:
No whats happens without a condom happens and what doesn't happen with one doesn't happen
Grendh'al says:
Wear one if you're not ready for a child
Staci says:
doesnt always happen, but it can
Grendh'al says:
financially
Staci says:
i am not concerned
Grendh'al says:
it can
Grendh'al says:
it very much can
Staci says:
yes i agree it can
Staci says:
you dont need to lecture me
Grendh'al says:
No I need to shake some bloody sense into you. Use the money you spend on your cigarettes and use it on condoms and use them. Then in the future plan for your child.
Staci says:
i have condoms
Staci says:
and we use them most of the time
Grendh'al says:
Pray tell, why not all the time?
Grendh'al says:
There has to be more to it than apathy
Staci says:
apathy?
Staci says:
define por favor
Grendh'al says:
"I dont care whatever happens happens"
Grendh'al says:
Considering pregnancy and raising children is pretty important
Grendh'al says:
and a defining factor ina person's life and those around him
Staci says:
of course it is
Grendh'al says:
I choose apathy as a word
Grendh'al says:
Apathy (also called impassivity or perfunctoriness) is a state of indifference, or the suppression of emotions such as concern, excitement, motivation and passion. An apathetic individual has an absence of interest or concern to emotional, social, or physical life. They may also exhibit an insensibility or sluggishness.
Grendh'al says:
You either want a kid or you don't want a kid
Staci says:
im not a stupid ignorant child, i know what the possiblities are and i believe that it should be left to fate. when the time comes for me to have a child, i will, and i will do a damn good job raising him or her and i will work hard for them and give them all the best. and it will happen whenever it will.
Grendh'al says:
Fate is a joke. People who want to have them do and people who don't want to don't and then there are the accidents or first time I come across bizzare gambles.
Grendh'al says:
Is David going along with this?
Grendh'al says:
Does he think God will decide when or something like that?
Grendh'al says:
You should probably draw an angry Chibi the happy one seems ironic
Staci says:
fate is not a joke
Staci says:
its not about god
Staci says:
david doesnt want a child right now
Staci says:
and now my chibi is smug
Grendh'al says:
There are probabilities and percents. Stop riding through the clouds, you guys are a couple just like luke and Mel.
Grendh'al says:
Interrupting the drama Christa's texting me asking why arent you at school
Staci says:
cuz im fucked up
Grendh'al says:
Sick?
Staci says:
nah just in the head
Grendh'al says:
Deal
Grendh'al says:
She'll probably want to pick you up let me text her
Staci says:
ok
Grendh'al says:
Done
Staci says:
k
Grendh'al says:
So outside that fate controls sperm and menstrual cycles
Staci says:
fate is not controlling
Staci says:
fate is the future
Grendh'al says:
Why are you not feeling so great
Grendh'al says:
future is what you make it
Staci says:
it is not set, it is always changing, but everything happens for a reason, and that is the fate
Grendh'al says:
fate controls sperm and menstrual cycles for it's own reasons
Grendh'al says:
Don't see that much of a difference
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Staci says:
of course
Grendh'al says:
You guys are using your rubbers and whatnot right
Staci says:
umm most of the tim
Staci says:
e
Staci says:
i drew a chibi crying
Grendh'al says:
...
Grendh'al says:
That has to be the worse attempt at dismissing a topic I have ever come across
Staci says:
lol
Staci says:
look at it
Grendh'al says:
it's a nice chibi
Grendh'al says:
I see it
Grendh'al says:
*pat pat* I commend your chibi skills
Staci says:
yay!
Grendh'al says:
Now
Grendh'al says:
What do you mean MOST of the time
Grendh'al says:
What happens the not so most of the time?
Grendh'al says:
You run out?
Staci says:
lol
Staci says:
we usually dont start with one, and only a couple times have we finished without one
Grendh'al says:
You know there's this thing called pregnancy
Grendh'al says:
you know like what happenend to Mel
Grendh'al says:
That happens when you finish without one
Grendh'al says:
and it's usually a good idea not to pull such stunts during high school
Grendh'al says:
Just saying m'dear
Staci says:
yeah
Staci says:
but i dont care xp
Grendh'al says:
Why?
Grendh'al says:
Are you trying for a kid?
Staci says:
not really
Staci says:
whatever happens happens
Grendh'al says:
um
Grendh'al says:
There's a pretty clear line inbetween sex with condoms and sex without it. I don't see a lot of chance happening there
Grendh'al says:
Let's try to shake the apathy there off for a moment. Okay and if a HUMAN BEING starts growing in your womb?
Staci says:
but i dont care if it happens
Staci says:
i would verymuch so embrace that part of life
Grendh'al says:
So you are trying for one
Grendh'al says:
in a roll of dice
Staci says:
not really
Staci says:
just whatever happens, happens
Grendh'al says:
No whats happens without a condom happens and what doesn't happen with one doesn't happen
Grendh'al says:
Wear one if you're not ready for a child
Staci says:
doesnt always happen, but it can
Grendh'al says:
financially
Staci says:
i am not concerned
Grendh'al says:
it can
Grendh'al says:
it very much can
Staci says:
yes i agree it can
Staci says:
you dont need to lecture me
Grendh'al says:
No I need to shake some bloody sense into you. Use the money you spend on your cigarettes and use it on condoms and use them. Then in the future plan for your child.
Staci says:
i have condoms
Staci says:
and we use them most of the time
Grendh'al says:
Pray tell, why not all the time?
Grendh'al says:
There has to be more to it than apathy
Staci says:
apathy?
Staci says:
define por favor
Grendh'al says:
"I dont care whatever happens happens"
Grendh'al says:
Considering pregnancy and raising children is pretty important
Grendh'al says:
and a defining factor ina person's life and those around him
Staci says:
of course it is
Grendh'al says:
I choose apathy as a word
Grendh'al says:
Apathy (also called impassivity or perfunctoriness) is a state of indifference, or the suppression of emotions such as concern, excitement, motivation and passion. An apathetic individual has an absence of interest or concern to emotional, social, or physical life. They may also exhibit an insensibility or sluggishness.
Grendh'al says:
You either want a kid or you don't want a kid
Staci says:
im not a stupid ignorant child, i know what the possiblities are and i believe that it should be left to fate. when the time comes for me to have a child, i will, and i will do a damn good job raising him or her and i will work hard for them and give them all the best. and it will happen whenever it will.
Grendh'al says:
Fate is a joke. People who want to have them do and people who don't want to don't and then there are the accidents or first time I come across bizzare gambles.
Grendh'al says:
Is David going along with this?
Grendh'al says:
Does he think God will decide when or something like that?
Grendh'al says:
You should probably draw an angry Chibi the happy one seems ironic
Staci says:
fate is not a joke
Staci says:
its not about god
Staci says:
david doesnt want a child right now
Staci says:
and now my chibi is smug
Grendh'al says:
There are probabilities and percents. Stop riding through the clouds, you guys are a couple just like luke and Mel.
Grendh'al says:
Interrupting the drama Christa's texting me asking why arent you at school
Staci says:
cuz im fucked up
Grendh'al says:
Sick?
Staci says:
nah just in the head
Grendh'al says:
Deal
Grendh'al says:
She'll probably want to pick you up let me text her
Staci says:
ok
Grendh'al says:
Done
Staci says:
k
Grendh'al says:
So outside that fate controls sperm and menstrual cycles
Staci says:
fate is not controlling
Staci says:
fate is the future
Grendh'al says:
Why are you not feeling so great
Grendh'al says:
future is what you make it
Staci says:
it is not set, it is always changing, but everything happens for a reason, and that is the fate
Grendh'al says:
fate controls sperm and menstrual cycles for it's own reasons
Grendh'al says:
Don't see that much of a difference
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