--Found this, written sometime in December by my guess during my stay in the hospital--
The bitter beginning. I'm writing from the hospital. I got a comfy sleeping bag. I am currently inside it writing. I'm back on track. Confident and cocky I got it all figured out. I know my plans and I know that they'll work. Pulled through for now. Can't be bothered with petty things for petty things they are. I feel edgy...very much so.There will be repercussions but not now. Too busy for them now. Maybe it's bought time maybe it's all I need. I've gone heartless per se in a way. Determined very much so though. Somewhere between splashing in diarrhea for two nights, the long solitude and the screaming fits of an ill man I love. I snapped. I left Friday got back Monday. My grandfather is going through these screaming fits. He just screams and screams until he tires himself out. I didn't sleep. My mom heard it once, for a few minutes, and started crying. I've heard it 5 times for hours on end and felt concern and alarm only. I think I've lost part of myself in all of this, I just don't how much.
He's medicated, all that does is keep greater time distance between the fits. He never did that before. I left Friday as mentioned before and he didn't have these screaming fits. My aunt stayed Friday to Monday and they started. Suspicious no? She keeps telling him it's okay to want to die, kindly worded ask god to take you, dumb stupid wench that's paramount to torture for someone in his position.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Notes on Arrival on PR (not current)
--Short note on arrival in PR and anecdotes, not current, written sometime in late December--
My dear mother has wasted no time in converting me into a majordomo with he occasional hard labor to do once more. She is once more incapable of getting up to fetch objects that are 8 feet from her so she calls out for me to get them. I however have to get up from my BED and go over. She sinks into the couch and is too lazy to get up. Ugh. I am providing animal care once more. Bitter this homecoming was just plain bitter not bittersweet as expected. Just bitter, truly and heinously.
shouldn't the fear of STD's alone keep him away? He doesn't know where that's been! I'd be more okay with him shagging some dead animal left in the sun to be honest. It was emotional he says. Well I care for Miss blossom like a sister and I'm not offering to put my hand in her pants am I? Seems silly an excuse. I'll leave him be for now the world shuns him already. I don't like agreeing with the world. The world and I rarely get along.
My dear mother has wasted no time in converting me into a majordomo with he occasional hard labor to do once more. She is once more incapable of getting up to fetch objects that are 8 feet from her so she calls out for me to get them. I however have to get up from my BED and go over. She sinks into the couch and is too lazy to get up. Ugh. I am providing animal care once more. Bitter this homecoming was just plain bitter not bittersweet as expected. Just bitter, truly and heinously.
shouldn't the fear of STD's alone keep him away? He doesn't know where that's been! I'd be more okay with him shagging some dead animal left in the sun to be honest. It was emotional he says. Well I care for Miss blossom like a sister and I'm not offering to put my hand in her pants am I? Seems silly an excuse. I'll leave him be for now the world shuns him already. I don't like agreeing with the world. The world and I rarely get along.
Blogspot Inauguration
Forgive my lateness, things transpire as always. From this point in the journal back you will find old entries from another website with a journal application that was used. Links might not work, codes might not be appliable and so on. For this I apologize I simply do not have the time to go through them all and transcript them onto the format of this website. The entries up to this one have been simply copy pasted and you may find references to art or people that are of course not part of Blogspot as well as the errant code or link as mentioned before. You may also notice an older date written on the entry not matching with the one set by blogspot, blogspot simply marks when it was moved.
From this moment on however I hope that after a quick conglomeration of the half finished notes and more recent unfinished entries and ideas I have still laying about I may begin to keep this up to date with present and current happenings.
From this moment on however I hope that after a quick conglomeration of the half finished notes and more recent unfinished entries and ideas I have still laying about I may begin to keep this up to date with present and current happenings.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Devious Journal Entry
Mon Dec 29, 2008, 12:55 PM
I read Dreams in the Witch-House by Lovecraft. I'd dare say it's one of my favorite stories from him. Alongside the Dunwich Horror, The Colour Out of Space, The Whisperer in the Darkness and At the Mountains of Madness. I got drafts on ideas on alien life and a prose on a ghoul feast on my laptop so that should come up soon. I'm getting Spore when I get home. Probably try to make some Mi-Go. I'm listening to the Posies "I guess you're right". I made a playlist of all the bands I listened in 9th grade. Holy Jeebus so much teenage angst manifest haha.
I read Dreams in the Witch-House by Lovecraft. I'd dare say it's one of my favorite stories from him. Alongside the Dunwich Horror, The Colour Out of Space, The Whisperer in the Darkness and At the Mountains of Madness. I got drafts on ideas on alien life and a prose on a ghoul feast on my laptop so that should come up soon. I'm getting Spore when I get home. Probably try to make some Mi-Go. I'm listening to the Posies "I guess you're right". I made a playlist of all the bands I listened in 9th grade. Holy Jeebus so much teenage angst manifest haha.
Greetings
Fri Dec 19, 2008, 5:49 PM
Back for the weekend. I go back on Monday. Too much has gone on and I don't even want to start. I got lots of new deviations. I might shove em off to a different account. Not sure. Most are Lovecraft themed been reading too much of his work it' so good. Beep beep... I'm a Jeep.
Back for the weekend. I go back on Monday. Too much has gone on and I don't even want to start. I got lots of new deviations. I might shove em off to a different account. Not sure. Most are Lovecraft themed been reading too much of his work it' so good. Beep beep... I'm a Jeep.
Devious Journal Entry
Wed Dec 10, 2008, 1:04 PM
Ah well as you may imagine I write once again because of developments. My grandpa's in the hospital again. No reason behind it. He's had pneumonia twice and is 85, he just had a cough and my aunt took him as "preventive measures" which she's never taken before. The doctor, just a few days ago, gave us an antibiotic treatment to prevent it from returning when he developed a light cough again. As you know I'm the one that stays weeks on end sleeping on a pullout sofa in the hospital day after day when he's admitted until he's discharged. My aunt had an argument with my mom when my mom told her she was buying plane tickets and needed a date within two weeks. It was a yelling contest that ended with my aunt shoving the phone into my hand and me picking it up to hear my mom yelling on her side. My aunt the lowly clever though not even that just base sprung me a trap. "Grandpa stays alone if you leave" and it's implied she will not search for any alternative at all to cover 2 weeks if I were to go. Mom fights with her and my aunt simply asks me if I want to leave I tell her I do if Grandpa can be cared for she answers that he'll be alone then basks in her victory. Oh so damn a lowly being.
Guess what? Not only is there a nursing service that can be paid. My dad's sister who lives in new jersey that evangelist that came over once. She clearly stated being a sweet unemployed christian lady that she'd be more than happy to take care of grandpa in the mornings and afternoons until my aunt came home for a small modest fee. They don't want to pay a professional nursing service, they don't want to pay shit to a sweet christian family member that's more than willing. They say because they also don't want to "bother" her making her drive but also of course and unspoken pay a miserable pay because the nursing service might cost but my evangelist aunt asks nothing compared to it. Am I coming off as angry again? Well I am.
I should tell you what happened and I should tell you what I don't think I have told you. Firstly here it goes again. I give something closely equal to professional nursing care during the day. I've watched closely at the hospital and I love my grandpa a lot so I'm devoted in my service and practice. Shift him every hour, medicate him, groom him, receive the nurses and home aids and packages, monitor his machines, empty his folly bag. Check his sugar, temperature, control the room temperature. I could go on. After my aunt comes home she needs help shifting him and changing him. I change him with the help of home aids and nurses during the day and I can shift him by myself. Still I'm preparing medications and taking sugar and such well into the night. At around 11-12 my aunt goes to sleep after checking and changing him and the bed one last time if needed. This is my only time when I can be truly alone and in private. Outside of this time I can't watch a whole movie or show. Even still my aunt wakes me during the night to shift him or suction him or odder things besides. She does a number of times, 2 or 3 most nights at 2-4-6 a.m. Multiply that everyday for 6 months. They don't want to bother the sweet christian lady that's bee insisting she can help everyday? To hell with that they just don't want to pay her. I didn't know that was up.
To make things more cheerful my laptop. Yes the one I've returned 3 times for various software and hardware issues that it had while brand new well it's broken. Not even broken again it got shipped they fixed the optical drive which was broken and nobody even knew it was and shipped it back with the still not working CD-ROM so CDs aren't really working on it still... I'm shipping it back for full refund and washing my hands of this unbelievable technical support incompetence. I'm on the phone with them right now.
Anyways so yes the odd hours of the night are the only time I have for myself and so I do go on the computer or watch a whole movie or show an hour and a half or two hours going to bed at around 1:30-2:00 usually but not exclusively. I need time for myself at some point and that's all I get a few hours in the dead of night. I must move on soon so the point is this brings us to the latest insult. She walks in this morning and finds me sleeping at 7 and tells me she's calling to take grandpa to the hospital as "preventive measures" and will tell me when the paramedics are onb their way. So I figure I'll be sleeping on a pullout sofa for the next week and a half or two so I go back to bed while I have one. She then walks in on me oh so not acceptable 8 in the morning and tlls me in her thin reedy voice: "This happens to you for being up on that computer at night, you're supposed to be caring for your grandfather. It's fine I'll go to the hospital with him. I don't need you right now I'll pick you up when I do." What the hell? I regularly have 2 hours for myself and the rest is spent with grandpa or helping her. I'm some employee that needs to be up and at it while at work and the catch is the shift never ends. I have to leave no trace that I live here AND be fully awake day and night and ready to be woken during the night and my only leisure should be sleeping in the odd hours I take for myself? They don't want to make the christian lady drive...
I want to go home though mom's saying her controlling crap again. "Nobody will love you like I do", "You will not be safer anywhere but your home", "People that tell you not to listen to me are bad people", "Listen to me in all things". I simply don't say anything and I sense her tensing up the same way she tenses when I tell her she's being racist saying black people are inferior and that they aren't, when I stay silent when she tells me Jesus could make grandpa get up and walk right this very instant or don't hate campaign with her when she says homosexuals are depraved filthy disgusting demons. She's the sweetest thing as long as you agree and do as she says when you don't she's your worst enemy. There are no facts merely interpretations. She's wrong in my view most of the time and I love her anyway. She's apparently incapable of returning such sentiment. I can't relate to her well and my aunt is the same way I saw them interact. They get together and the Tv goes "She was raped by her ex boyfriend and beaten" they start clucking on how horrible it is for hours on end. For me I assume everyone in the room finds it horrible, if someone says it's not and presents a reason then yes that would be something to talk about for hours. Anyhow Dad's restraining order is down so I can see him again and I am looking forward to that though. My animals and my friends. There's a good chance it'll be tooth and nail if I want to study abroad.
Sins of a Solar Empire has taken my stress away I actually left this open and played it for around an hour now I have to go pack for the hospital. My Vasari Empire own 4 stars. Damn Sexy. Like me.
Ah well as you may imagine I write once again because of developments. My grandpa's in the hospital again. No reason behind it. He's had pneumonia twice and is 85, he just had a cough and my aunt took him as "preventive measures" which she's never taken before. The doctor, just a few days ago, gave us an antibiotic treatment to prevent it from returning when he developed a light cough again. As you know I'm the one that stays weeks on end sleeping on a pullout sofa in the hospital day after day when he's admitted until he's discharged. My aunt had an argument with my mom when my mom told her she was buying plane tickets and needed a date within two weeks. It was a yelling contest that ended with my aunt shoving the phone into my hand and me picking it up to hear my mom yelling on her side. My aunt the lowly clever though not even that just base sprung me a trap. "Grandpa stays alone if you leave" and it's implied she will not search for any alternative at all to cover 2 weeks if I were to go. Mom fights with her and my aunt simply asks me if I want to leave I tell her I do if Grandpa can be cared for she answers that he'll be alone then basks in her victory. Oh so damn a lowly being.
Guess what? Not only is there a nursing service that can be paid. My dad's sister who lives in new jersey that evangelist that came over once. She clearly stated being a sweet unemployed christian lady that she'd be more than happy to take care of grandpa in the mornings and afternoons until my aunt came home for a small modest fee. They don't want to pay a professional nursing service, they don't want to pay shit to a sweet christian family member that's more than willing. They say because they also don't want to "bother" her making her drive but also of course and unspoken pay a miserable pay because the nursing service might cost but my evangelist aunt asks nothing compared to it. Am I coming off as angry again? Well I am.
I should tell you what happened and I should tell you what I don't think I have told you. Firstly here it goes again. I give something closely equal to professional nursing care during the day. I've watched closely at the hospital and I love my grandpa a lot so I'm devoted in my service and practice. Shift him every hour, medicate him, groom him, receive the nurses and home aids and packages, monitor his machines, empty his folly bag. Check his sugar, temperature, control the room temperature. I could go on. After my aunt comes home she needs help shifting him and changing him. I change him with the help of home aids and nurses during the day and I can shift him by myself. Still I'm preparing medications and taking sugar and such well into the night. At around 11-12 my aunt goes to sleep after checking and changing him and the bed one last time if needed. This is my only time when I can be truly alone and in private. Outside of this time I can't watch a whole movie or show. Even still my aunt wakes me during the night to shift him or suction him or odder things besides. She does a number of times, 2 or 3 most nights at 2-4-6 a.m. Multiply that everyday for 6 months. They don't want to bother the sweet christian lady that's bee insisting she can help everyday? To hell with that they just don't want to pay her. I didn't know that was up.
To make things more cheerful my laptop. Yes the one I've returned 3 times for various software and hardware issues that it had while brand new well it's broken. Not even broken again it got shipped they fixed the optical drive which was broken and nobody even knew it was and shipped it back with the still not working CD-ROM so CDs aren't really working on it still... I'm shipping it back for full refund and washing my hands of this unbelievable technical support incompetence. I'm on the phone with them right now.
Anyways so yes the odd hours of the night are the only time I have for myself and so I do go on the computer or watch a whole movie or show an hour and a half or two hours going to bed at around 1:30-2:00 usually but not exclusively. I need time for myself at some point and that's all I get a few hours in the dead of night. I must move on soon so the point is this brings us to the latest insult. She walks in this morning and finds me sleeping at 7 and tells me she's calling to take grandpa to the hospital as "preventive measures" and will tell me when the paramedics are onb their way. So I figure I'll be sleeping on a pullout sofa for the next week and a half or two so I go back to bed while I have one. She then walks in on me oh so not acceptable 8 in the morning and tlls me in her thin reedy voice: "This happens to you for being up on that computer at night, you're supposed to be caring for your grandfather. It's fine I'll go to the hospital with him. I don't need you right now I'll pick you up when I do." What the hell? I regularly have 2 hours for myself and the rest is spent with grandpa or helping her. I'm some employee that needs to be up and at it while at work and the catch is the shift never ends. I have to leave no trace that I live here AND be fully awake day and night and ready to be woken during the night and my only leisure should be sleeping in the odd hours I take for myself? They don't want to make the christian lady drive...
I want to go home though mom's saying her controlling crap again. "Nobody will love you like I do", "You will not be safer anywhere but your home", "People that tell you not to listen to me are bad people", "Listen to me in all things". I simply don't say anything and I sense her tensing up the same way she tenses when I tell her she's being racist saying black people are inferior and that they aren't, when I stay silent when she tells me Jesus could make grandpa get up and walk right this very instant or don't hate campaign with her when she says homosexuals are depraved filthy disgusting demons. She's the sweetest thing as long as you agree and do as she says when you don't she's your worst enemy. There are no facts merely interpretations. She's wrong in my view most of the time and I love her anyway. She's apparently incapable of returning such sentiment. I can't relate to her well and my aunt is the same way I saw them interact. They get together and the Tv goes "She was raped by her ex boyfriend and beaten" they start clucking on how horrible it is for hours on end. For me I assume everyone in the room finds it horrible, if someone says it's not and presents a reason then yes that would be something to talk about for hours. Anyhow Dad's restraining order is down so I can see him again and I am looking forward to that though. My animals and my friends. There's a good chance it'll be tooth and nail if I want to study abroad.
Sins of a Solar Empire has taken my stress away I actually left this open and played it for around an hour now I have to go pack for the hospital. My Vasari Empire own 4 stars. Damn Sexy. Like me.
Shtuff
Mon Dec 8, 2008, 4:31 PM
==
Basics:
==
Name: Seb
Height: 5" 9'
Natural hair color: brown
Eye color: Brown
Number of siblings: nonexistant
Glasses/Contacts: None but I can't read at a distance... it's frustrating while driving or trying to find aisles in the supermarket. WHERE THE HELL IS THE BACTINE?!
Piercings: None and not too excited about getting any for the moment
Tattoos: None yet
Braces?: Nay yet on a sidenote I knew a guy who punched a guy who had braces in the mouth and his knuckles got torn to ribbons... Well I found it hilarious...
==
Favorite:
==
Color: Black, Purple and Green
Band: (s) Voltaire and Creature Feature
Song: (s) probably some of the above right now off the top of my head one of each to humor thee. "The Man Upstairs"- Voltaire and "Gorey Demise"- Creature Feature
Video game: Warhammer 40k- Dawn of War (expansions included)
TV show: Documentaries and such. History channel, Science Channel, Net Geo and those late stand up shows on HBO.
Movie: Pan's Labyrinth
Book: Complete tales of Lovecraft and Poe in one wondrous collection?
Food: Fish, Fruit and Veggies
Game on a cell phone: Bejewled
Scent: Wet Earth
Animal: Wolves, Anthropods and Cephalopods
Comic book: JTHM
Cereal: Honey Bunches of Oats
Website: Can't say I spend hours on any singular one
Celeb(s): Oh now you add an (s)... Celebrties don't acknowledge my existance why should I care about theirs? Stop and think about that you bunch of fanatical pop culture addicted monkeys! monkeys!
==
Do you:
==
Play an instrument?: I can play chopsticks on a piano...
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: I'm not sure 2 hours a day at most but it's not daily so I don't know.
Like to sing?: I can sing some songs well besides those no not really at least not in public.
Have a job?: No it's a duty!
Have a cell phone?: Getting one.
Like to play sports?: Soccer back in highschool and I do enjoy chess.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Hard to define right now but I wouldn't consider myself open or availiable to anyone else.
Live somewhere NOT in the united states: Used to might again.
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: Nay who the hell does?
Have any special talents/skills?: Animal Care and breeding, gardening and herbalism, Bad knock knock jokes, fixing things and cleaning like some janitor/handyman hybrid grawr, nursing, chess tactics, sarcasm, humming, I can control my pyromania and I possible have more patience than you.
Exercise daily?: Weights to techno music is a good daily exercise
Like school?: I want to go pwn teh college
==
Can you:
==
Sing the alphabet backwards?: Oh yeah we all practice that since kindgergarden... I can't though
Speak any other languages?: Yup Spanish
Go a day without food?: Have though it's wise to take sugary snacks if one is going to do that
Stay up for more than 24 hours?: Too often my friend too often
Roll your tongue?: Yes
Eat a whole pizza?: Depends on the size...small, medium or large?
==
Have you ever:
==
Snuck out of the house?: Is snuck proper? yeah but I try to return before I' missed that.
Cried to get out of trouble?: Nay
Gotten lost in your city?: Momentarily
Seen a shooting star?: I have 3 times and I'm waiting for them wishes
Been to any other countries?: Yes
Had a serious surgery?: Nay
Stolen something important to someone else?: No one does not steal items of value or importance cheap pens and rubber bands are fair game.
Solved a rubik's cube?: After like 20minutes
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: Yes!
Cried over a girl?: Yes...
Kissed a random stranger?: Naw
Hugged a random stranger?: Been arrested?: I believe they'd punch me or anyone who tried that
Done drugs?: Negatory good sir
Had alcohol?: Yes
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: Soda does hurt
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: Yes because I was on the floor I was getting off and it was after hours. I guess a janitor might've gotten pissed if he got on shortly after.
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: Yeah back in elemetary school when my mom drove me haha
Swore at your parents?: yes
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: It's more accurate and effective to punch
Been in love?: Am
Been close to love?: Me and love are best pals... not really
Been to a casino?: Yes
Ran over an animal and killed it?: No I ran it over and pieced it together then it got up and walked away...
Broken a bone?: No but a piece of broken chainlink fence went through my arm like *through*
Gotten stitches?: no but I do have a number of scars
Had a water balloon fight in winter?: Haha I like how you think!
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?: no
Made homemade muffins?: No
Bitten someone?: Yes
Been to Disneyland/disneyworld?: Yes
More than 5 times?: lol no
Disney World: yes
Disney Land: Wait what's the difference?
Been to Niagara Falls?: nope
Burped in someones face?: no
==
When's the last time you:
==
Brushed your teeth: This morning.
Went to the bathroom: 9 minutes ago.
Saw a movie in theaters: a month or so ago?
Read a book: about Am reading Lovecraft.
Had a snow day: never
Had a party: Had one... hm no but I've gone to some?
Had a slumber party: never
Made fun of someone: I make fun of life everyday.
Tripped in front of someone: Maybe when I was younger? I can't remember
Went to the grocery store: about a month
Got sick: Not in recent memory
Cursed: Bollocks... just now
Drank Blood: Drank? Maybe sucked on my pricked or cut thumb and I think it tastes good but I don't go around filling glasses and gulping.
==
Pick one:
==
Fruit/vegetables: Fruit
Black/white: Black
Lights on/lights off: Lights off
TV/movie: Both
Car/truck: Jeep
Cash/check: Cash
Pillows/blankets: both
Headache/stomach ache: Neither
Paint/charcoal: Charcoal. Ink
Chinese food/Mexican food: Chinese
Summer/winter: Winter
Snow/rain: Rain
Fog/misty: both
Rock/rap: Those are not comparable. Rap is not Music
Meat/vegetarian: vegetarian
Chocolate/vanilla: Chocolate
Sprinkles/icing: Sprinkles
Cake/pie: Pie
French toast/french fries: French Fries
Strawberries/blueberries: Bluberries
Ocean/swimming pool: Ocean
Cookies/muffins: Muffins
Wallet/pocket: My wallet goes in my pocket.
Window/door: A Window shaped door
Pink/purple: Purple
Cat/dog: Both
Long sleeve/short sleeves: Long
Pants/shorts: Pants
Winter break/spring break: Spring
Spring/autumn: Autumn
Clouds/clear sky: Clouds
Moon/mars: Mars
==
Love
==
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?: probably
What is your idea of the best date?: Something amusing, food, alone time to talk as in a walk or such then sit somehwhere and wait for it to end in each other's arms.
What was your first kiss like?: Tingly and wet
How old were you when you got your first kiss?: 15
Do you think love is a load of rubbish?: No
Whats the best experience you’ve ever had with the opposite sex?: Being completely alone and laughing until we cried like crazy people. It's an odd way to bond.
Have you ever been dumped?: Yes
Have you ever dumped someone?: No
What's the most sexual thing you’ve done with the opposite sex?: None of your buisness
==
I:
==
am: strange
want: To go home
need: To hold the one I love
crave: Peace
love: Christa-Bear and other things that pale in comparison
hate:Ignorance, Mindless hate and stupidity
feel: Tired
miss: Too many things
am annoyed by: "Friends" That will not go away
would rather: There is not "would rather" the walls close around me no matter where I turn
am tired of: Being so important and by extension responsible. Do you know who Atlas is?
will always: The people who've made me who I am
==
Silly stuff:
==
What is your favorite genre of music?: Alternative
What time is it now?: 7:22 p.pm.
What day is it?: 9th? december? I don't know look at the entry date
Whens the last time you called someone?: few minutes ago
How much money do you have right now?: A secret sum
Are you hungry?: Yes
Whatcha doin?: Typing this Journal Entry
Do you like parades?: yep
Do you like the moon?: OH YES
What are you going to do when you're done with this?: probably sleep
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: Creation
Have you ever had a picnic?: No
==
Do you think you are:
==
funny?: I make people laugh a lot so I guess so
handsome?: People are delusional and tell me I am but they are simply delusional so no
sarcastic?: Yes
lazy?: No
hyper?: Yes
friendly?: Depends
evil?: Can be cruel
smart?: I like to think so
strong?: I can lift heavy things but I dont work out to look "ripped" so it might not seem like it but I am more than I might seem
talented?: at certain things
dorky?: at times
Extra: Philosophical
==
Would you ever:
==
Sky dive?: probably
Run away?: From?
Curse at a teacher?: Hopefully not again
Not take a shower for a week?: Ew what the hell?
Ask someone out?: After friendship and mutual attraction being a sure thing
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?: no
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?: Possibly
Go scuba diving?: Have and want to again
Write a book?: I've always wanted to have literary talent I just dabble though I guess I could try some day
Become a rockstar?: yes were all destined to be movie gods and rock stars... capitalism and the media have you in their grasp!
==
Last questions:
==
What kind of computer do you have?: Laptop
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: no
How many posters do you have in your room?: none
How many cds do you have?: A number
What time is it now?: 7:29
==
Basics:
==
Name: Seb
Height: 5" 9'
Natural hair color: brown
Eye color: Brown
Number of siblings: nonexistant
Glasses/Contacts: None but I can't read at a distance... it's frustrating while driving or trying to find aisles in the supermarket. WHERE THE HELL IS THE BACTINE?!
Piercings: None and not too excited about getting any for the moment
Tattoos: None yet
Braces?: Nay yet on a sidenote I knew a guy who punched a guy who had braces in the mouth and his knuckles got torn to ribbons... Well I found it hilarious...
==
Favorite:
==
Color: Black, Purple and Green
Band: (s) Voltaire and Creature Feature
Song: (s) probably some of the above right now off the top of my head one of each to humor thee. "The Man Upstairs"- Voltaire and "Gorey Demise"- Creature Feature
Video game: Warhammer 40k- Dawn of War (expansions included)
TV show: Documentaries and such. History channel, Science Channel, Net Geo and those late stand up shows on HBO.
Movie: Pan's Labyrinth
Book: Complete tales of Lovecraft and Poe in one wondrous collection?
Food: Fish, Fruit and Veggies
Game on a cell phone: Bejewled
Scent: Wet Earth
Animal: Wolves, Anthropods and Cephalopods
Comic book: JTHM
Cereal: Honey Bunches of Oats
Website: Can't say I spend hours on any singular one
Celeb(s): Oh now you add an (s)... Celebrties don't acknowledge my existance why should I care about theirs? Stop and think about that you bunch of fanatical pop culture addicted monkeys! monkeys!
==
Do you:
==
Play an instrument?: I can play chopsticks on a piano...
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: I'm not sure 2 hours a day at most but it's not daily so I don't know.
Like to sing?: I can sing some songs well besides those no not really at least not in public.
Have a job?: No it's a duty!
Have a cell phone?: Getting one.
Like to play sports?: Soccer back in highschool and I do enjoy chess.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Hard to define right now but I wouldn't consider myself open or availiable to anyone else.
Live somewhere NOT in the united states: Used to might again.
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: Nay who the hell does?
Have any special talents/skills?: Animal Care and breeding, gardening and herbalism, Bad knock knock jokes, fixing things and cleaning like some janitor/handyman hybrid grawr, nursing, chess tactics, sarcasm, humming, I can control my pyromania and I possible have more patience than you.
Exercise daily?: Weights to techno music is a good daily exercise
Like school?: I want to go pwn teh college
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Can you:
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Sing the alphabet backwards?: Oh yeah we all practice that since kindgergarden... I can't though
Speak any other languages?: Yup Spanish
Go a day without food?: Have though it's wise to take sugary snacks if one is going to do that
Stay up for more than 24 hours?: Too often my friend too often
Roll your tongue?: Yes
Eat a whole pizza?: Depends on the size...small, medium or large?
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Have you ever:
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Snuck out of the house?: Is snuck proper? yeah but I try to return before I' missed that.
Cried to get out of trouble?: Nay
Gotten lost in your city?: Momentarily
Seen a shooting star?: I have 3 times and I'm waiting for them wishes
Been to any other countries?: Yes
Had a serious surgery?: Nay
Stolen something important to someone else?: No one does not steal items of value or importance cheap pens and rubber bands are fair game.
Solved a rubik's cube?: After like 20minutes
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: Yes!
Cried over a girl?: Yes...
Kissed a random stranger?: Naw
Hugged a random stranger?: Been arrested?: I believe they'd punch me or anyone who tried that
Done drugs?: Negatory good sir
Had alcohol?: Yes
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: Soda does hurt
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: Yes because I was on the floor I was getting off and it was after hours. I guess a janitor might've gotten pissed if he got on shortly after.
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: Yeah back in elemetary school when my mom drove me haha
Swore at your parents?: yes
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: It's more accurate and effective to punch
Been in love?: Am
Been close to love?: Me and love are best pals... not really
Been to a casino?: Yes
Ran over an animal and killed it?: No I ran it over and pieced it together then it got up and walked away...
Broken a bone?: No but a piece of broken chainlink fence went through my arm like *through*
Gotten stitches?: no but I do have a number of scars
Had a water balloon fight in winter?: Haha I like how you think!
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?: no
Made homemade muffins?: No
Bitten someone?: Yes
Been to Disneyland/disneyworld?: Yes
More than 5 times?: lol no
Disney World: yes
Disney Land: Wait what's the difference?
Been to Niagara Falls?: nope
Burped in someones face?: no
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When's the last time you:
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Brushed your teeth: This morning.
Went to the bathroom: 9 minutes ago.
Saw a movie in theaters: a month or so ago?
Read a book: about Am reading Lovecraft.
Had a snow day: never
Had a party: Had one... hm no but I've gone to some?
Had a slumber party: never
Made fun of someone: I make fun of life everyday.
Tripped in front of someone: Maybe when I was younger? I can't remember
Went to the grocery store: about a month
Got sick: Not in recent memory
Cursed: Bollocks... just now
Drank Blood: Drank? Maybe sucked on my pricked or cut thumb and I think it tastes good but I don't go around filling glasses and gulping.
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Pick one:
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Fruit/vegetables: Fruit
Black/white: Black
Lights on/lights off: Lights off
TV/movie: Both
Car/truck: Jeep
Cash/check: Cash
Pillows/blankets: both
Headache/stomach ache: Neither
Paint/charcoal: Charcoal. Ink
Chinese food/Mexican food: Chinese
Summer/winter: Winter
Snow/rain: Rain
Fog/misty: both
Rock/rap: Those are not comparable. Rap is not Music
Meat/vegetarian: vegetarian
Chocolate/vanilla: Chocolate
Sprinkles/icing: Sprinkles
Cake/pie: Pie
French toast/french fries: French Fries
Strawberries/blueberries: Bluberries
Ocean/swimming pool: Ocean
Cookies/muffins: Muffins
Wallet/pocket: My wallet goes in my pocket.
Window/door: A Window shaped door
Pink/purple: Purple
Cat/dog: Both
Long sleeve/short sleeves: Long
Pants/shorts: Pants
Winter break/spring break: Spring
Spring/autumn: Autumn
Clouds/clear sky: Clouds
Moon/mars: Mars
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Love
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Do you believe there is someone for everyone?: probably
What is your idea of the best date?: Something amusing, food, alone time to talk as in a walk or such then sit somehwhere and wait for it to end in each other's arms.
What was your first kiss like?: Tingly and wet
How old were you when you got your first kiss?: 15
Do you think love is a load of rubbish?: No
Whats the best experience you’ve ever had with the opposite sex?: Being completely alone and laughing until we cried like crazy people. It's an odd way to bond.
Have you ever been dumped?: Yes
Have you ever dumped someone?: No
What's the most sexual thing you’ve done with the opposite sex?: None of your buisness
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I:
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am: strange
want: To go home
need: To hold the one I love
crave: Peace
love: Christa-Bear and other things that pale in comparison
hate:Ignorance, Mindless hate and stupidity
feel: Tired
miss: Too many things
am annoyed by: "Friends" That will not go away
would rather: There is not "would rather" the walls close around me no matter where I turn
am tired of: Being so important and by extension responsible. Do you know who Atlas is?
will always: The people who've made me who I am
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Silly stuff:
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What is your favorite genre of music?: Alternative
What time is it now?: 7:22 p.pm.
What day is it?: 9th? december? I don't know look at the entry date
Whens the last time you called someone?: few minutes ago
How much money do you have right now?: A secret sum
Are you hungry?: Yes
Whatcha doin?: Typing this Journal Entry
Do you like parades?: yep
Do you like the moon?: OH YES
What are you going to do when you're done with this?: probably sleep
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: Creation
Have you ever had a picnic?: No
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Do you think you are:
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funny?: I make people laugh a lot so I guess so
handsome?: People are delusional and tell me I am but they are simply delusional so no
sarcastic?: Yes
lazy?: No
hyper?: Yes
friendly?: Depends
evil?: Can be cruel
smart?: I like to think so
strong?: I can lift heavy things but I dont work out to look "ripped" so it might not seem like it but I am more than I might seem
talented?: at certain things
dorky?: at times
Extra: Philosophical
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Would you ever:
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Sky dive?: probably
Run away?: From?
Curse at a teacher?: Hopefully not again
Not take a shower for a week?: Ew what the hell?
Ask someone out?: After friendship and mutual attraction being a sure thing
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?: no
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?: Possibly
Go scuba diving?: Have and want to again
Write a book?: I've always wanted to have literary talent I just dabble though I guess I could try some day
Become a rockstar?: yes were all destined to be movie gods and rock stars... capitalism and the media have you in their grasp!
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Last questions:
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What kind of computer do you have?: Laptop
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: no
How many posters do you have in your room?: none
How many cds do you have?: A number
What time is it now?: 7:29
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